Oh boy has my view on life changed. I have never in my life imagined I could feel the spirit that is felt at the MTC. It is undescribeable. It anything comes close it is truly a burning in my bosom. Idk how to spell in English anymore so bare with me jajaja. I love the MTC with all of my heart and soul. It has already pushed me in the direction of who I want to become. I hope I am able to feel the spirit I feel here for the rest of my life. I LOVE IT. I would rate my language at a 1.5 out of 10. hahahahha but really. It's okay though because I am learning the language of the spirit. And it has brought so much peace to my life. I have been trying to put off the natural man in myself more than ever. I have striving to be 100% obedient and make the most of this experience. But let me tell ya, ITS HARD. But I came across this scripture and I fell in love. Mosiah 3:19 19 For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a child,submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.
This is not my mission, this is the lords mission! I get so caught up in thoughts of I'm not good enough to be here or I don't know anything about this gospel or I can't get my thoughts across. But none of that matters! Because I was literally called of God. It's so reassuring to me to know that what ever trial I go through I have someone on my side and I need not worry. It breaks my heart to think that people in Salta, Argentina do not have this knowledge and they think they are completely alone in this journey. And that is why I am here. To let the lord work through my hands and help others. Sorry I had to get a little deep right there hahaha. But really, I remember being home and thinking about myself ALL THE TIME. What are my needs, what do I want to do, when can I go to sleep, why is this person so annoying and ya de ya de ya. And I'm a tad bit embarrassed. Being here has made my realize what is truly important. To become like Christ. To help others become like Christ. To dedicate every SECOND to my savior. I don't have a second to waste. I am so grateful to be here and have the knowledge that I have and will have. The best missionaries are the ones who have a burning desire to serve. I want to have that burning desire and be the best possible missionary I can.Also the food here is amazing, they have an allergy room and I have never eaten so healthy in my life.
I knew I was meant to be here when they served sweet potatoes on the second day. hahaha but really :D This life is truly what you make it. The MTC is so hard and so fun and SO sad sometimes and SO happy sometimes! But I am so so so very grateful for every single second I have been blessed with. I LOVE YOU ALL! I encourage you to take a step back and look at the direction you are headed. And I also encourage you to send me an email with your home address because I don't have time to email people back :((( But my new Zone Leader just told us that we can write letters home everyday!!!!!! Wooot Wooot! Also can't get biggie smalls out of my head so pray for that. XOXOXOXO